The Finest Things in Live Are in Dreams :)

Had the best dream in my whole entire life last night. i dreamt about being at an Incubus concert somewhere i don't know. Was watching them performing live and enjoying every moment of it. Cheering, shouting, singing along to every song that they were performing.. And then there was this segment in thier concert where they actually invite some random kid out of the crowd to play with them live. And i was invited on-stage! the feeling that i felt (in the dream was unimaginable.. almost euphoria).. so (in this dream) i walked up onstage and they handed me this percussion where i would actually stand beside Brandon Boyd.. they asked me to introduce myself, shook my hand and announced the music that they were gonna perform and told me to just wing it (freestyle). At this moment i was so nervous that i just stood still when they started playing.

Brandon smiled at me and told me to "just play".. and when i started to drum on the percussion the whole crowd started to cheer. eventually i did great. They liked my style, invited me back stage and offered to record a song with me. what else should i say but "Hell Yes!" right.. i mean, this is Incubus-one of my biggest fav. band ever!. next thing i remembered was being in a van to Nevada to another location of thier concert.

And then i woke up. Even tho i didn't get to dream recording that song with Incubus, i still had a great time (dreaming) jamming with them live. just couldn't believe i'd get to dream this dream.. the beauty of Ramadhan.. M blessed. (^_^ )

Tatkala Hati Merindu

Pejamkan mata dan bayangkannya
hadirlah ia di hati bersua
kenangkan masa pabila bersama
bersenyumlah puas dengan apa yang ada.

kadang-kalanya yand dicari sudah jumpa
tetapi hati berlenga-lengah bersahaja..
sedarlah bahawa langit hanya penuh dengan impian
pandanglah ke bumi pulanglah ke nyata.

langkahmu perlahan bagai tiada hala
hatimu tenang seolah tiada rasa.
tatkala hati sudah merindu
madahlah dengan kata-kata bermadu.

Reminiscence - somehow i've lost myself somewhere

It's been awhile since i posted anything on this site.. if only I have any substancial matter to record.. truth is, I'm not myself. Not since KL. I noticed that i changed alot ever since i moved back to my hometown. Tried to leave everything behind.. and i guess i did. My past, friends, places i used to go to.. and a little bit of myself. Tried writing again.. but can't think of anything to write about these days.. not to say that each day i live is not important, but i don't feel the excitement.. always told myself to challenge the day ahead.. but there's nothing.. just plain, simple, go-to-work-and-back-day.. maybe that's why I always find the need to go out and PARTAY every now and then..

I'm getting tired of all these nonsense.. i need an inspiration. Desperately need a challenge. I feel that I'm capable of doing wonders.. but i wonder what can i do?.. What can i do?..

tiba-tiba teringat serangkap lagu by yuna "We question what we are, this i spend the best so far".. such truth in just a simple phrase.. I'm glad that I'm still alive.. but am not looking forward for tomorrow.. eventually we all have to live our lives to the fullest..

So let's just do what we feel like..shall we? fill that half-empty life with things that would excite ouselves.. something that we cld always look back to and laugh about, tell stories of.. argue.. discuss. let's just live life and remember every little things.. for our generations to come.

I'll come back to that place where i left a little part of me.. someday. And i know that i'll be whole again. :)

lost?

i feel uninvited, i'm uninspired, unimpressed with last year's experience... i step into the new year unresolutionised.. i don't even care if there's no such words.. there is now. i don't intend to change anything because i'm unorganised.. unfocused.. i need inspiration to continue to smile and look forward to tomorrow. because today will go by unchallenged. i'm understating myself not because i give up.. just unenergised to keep glory. i don't care if this post speaks of gibberish.. or wether it is unjustified.. i dodn't make you read this, you chose to bore yourself (if not to death).. you may not want to finish reading.. but you're curious of what's happening next. congratulation. you just made an effort to seek. think out of the norm. that box is starting to fill up, full?. i'm famished.

Start Anew

Let's revert to being normal. shit happens so look alive. It's about taking chances. do what you feel without second guessing yourself. analysis leads to paralysis, so to speak. i took the leap. and now i'm left hanging. let's just sweep it all under the rug. or rather recycle it or shit. y'all have been walking for far too long. let's pick up the pace, let's run. life's too short and too serious.. so make the best, go make yourself.

it's been aeon since i last updated this shit-forsaken blog.. didn't even bother to. no one ever drop by. for what even?.. nothing of substance, just trash.

let's pick up the pace, let's run. take chances. regret the choices that you've made along the way if you must. IF YOU MUST. but dust yourself off and run again.

Shit happens. So look Alive!

sarcasm

It's a way that i've adopted (apart form being a johorean). Being sarcastic. It's not to boast of greatness but rather challenging myself to be less ignorant of what's happening today, keeping myself in-check. I, for one, do not have a nasty sense of humor but rather lame (at times). I am not an anti-social, just SHY.. i am rather friendly (so i was told) that most of my peers befriend me - for benafits.. No, i'm not a rich & spoiled kid who lives in a mansion on top of a hill and drives a freakin' buggati..

ME. A kind hearted warm red blooded human being, or in other words "The nice guy who finishes last". Why am i that kinda person? GOD's will. I'll give you that.. it has been this way ever since i could remember. Maybe because of the way i was brought up inot this world (or that my mother had always wanted one of her sons to become a religious guru)..

so.. sarcasm, it's a way of me being who i am without caring what ppl think of me.. like flashing the middle finger in your face without doing it exactly. because "to each, his own" so please.. don't let this front fool u.. stop being judgemental and actually start reading the whole book.. i'm not bright.. but i'm a self proclaimed smart ass! you might think that it's stupid.. until you really understand.

All Is Doomed!

I've been inspired by some bloggers by thier postings in the perfect format of the "bahasa ibunda" so i tought i'd put up a post in "bahasa"... but all of the sudden I found it quite hard. What happened? I mean i do converse in "bahasa" all the time.. so it should not be a problem.... right?.

It hit me then.. "THEY" have actually taken over the world without people noticing... winning over our votes, our minds, our culture... everything! BLAME MTV BLAME AMERICAN IDOL BLAME REALITY TV shows all you people are being brainwashed they are winning wars untill there's nothing but THEM (in all of us!).. should we not do anything about this?..


which leads to another thing.. here's the scenario :

I was with a friend walking around at GAP (the clothing store) and he told me that this particular brand is funding the jewish (go figure..) and probably thier war as well.. and i actually told him

"yeah, so what? whoever gives a $#i+.." (i actually said that!)..

and he said "well, actually i do!"...


but do we actually do care about this matter? if so why are we drinking coca-cola instead? why are we chain-smoking ciggarets like dunhill or marlboro or what not...? well we said we matter about this issue.. but why can't we resist all these brands that are funding the war? we are actually paying for those bullets that killed all those innocent people.. and we say we care..

hell we can't even write in proper bahasa melayu let alone care about the world... we do actually think about changing the way the world works.. we actually do think about changing how the system works.. we do actually tell ourselves that we care about what matters most.. but we never (just) do anything about it..

why?

because "THEY" have actually won! it's just a matter of realising it.. time to wake up! and retrack our steps.. because we are all drifting away.. because when the time is TOO LATE?.. we might be killing each other.....


...until there's only "THEM"